The Blog of the Frog

(Click for larger photo) This is taken from Castle Hill, looking down on Seaton. Not bad considering, it’s not easy to take decent photos from my height 😆 Light was beginning to go too, as you can see!

I love the way the pink sky is reflecting on the water here 🙂 Sun was setting!

I’m not quite sure how this came out so clear but still! The beach is down below, I’d climbed up the hill you can see in the first photo (I’m about a quarter/third of the way up there) and am taking this from above.

You can view the rest of the photos here. Not great I know but the light was against me and I’m still learning – only had my camera since May 😉

Stupid twits upgraded our broadband to 2MBs again on Friday night. The problem being we’re right at the edge of the area that can receive it and so they upgrade everyone and then downgrade if it doesn’t work. In our case it doesn’t.

The real problem is that they already upgraded us a couple of weeks ago and I was without access for a few days so they downgraded it. It shouldn’t have been upgraded again! Anyway they sorted it this morning after numerous long phone conversations with them, so after three and a bit days of being internetless I’m back again!

On Friday evening we went down to Seaton, twas very nice! I did get some pictures, not great as they were taken between 8:15-10pm so the light was going rather, I will post a couple of them – just need to decide which ones and resize them!

He fell in the pond! I know our garden isn’t the most toddler friendly (I have two ponds – a big one and a small one, more or less next to each other) but he fell in the pond!

😆 😆

My lovely mother has let me in for visitors tomorrow morning. Her whatever relation (cousin I think? her children are my second cousins..), Judith, is down here on holiday and we haven’t seen them in 6 or 7 years, Judith’s daughter is desperate to see me and so I’m going to be invaded!

She’s got two children, girl is ten (eleven in September) and boy will be two in October. So yes her daughter is too young to remember me! I think it’s because she’s got no cousins and so she looks up to me instead, I feel I have a lot to live up to!

It’s really quite pathetic, I washed my hair today for the first time in months (well rather I lay there and mum did all the work…) and then I had it cut and I am absolutely exhausted! I hope a lot of this is stress (see yesterdays entry) because I’ll never manage half of my September plans in this state! It really needed doing, I had about two inches off. Even so it’s still a good way past my shoulders, I should think I’ll probably end up having a bit more off soonish.

Having clean hair is rather a luxury for me so I’m enjoying it whilst it lasts! Washing it every week or so isn’t practical and I hate the itchy greasy stage I have to go through before it looks more or less alright again so I do it as infrequently as possible.

Though I have discovered it’s impossible to get a straight haircut with scoliosis!

So…here we are. It’s been a long road, twisting and turning all the way. Taking two steps forward only to take three back again!

There are certain people I really don’t know how I would’ve managed without. They kept (and keep) me relatively (in?)sane 🙂 And of course I owe an awful lot to PKC and it’s members. Over the last five years they’ve always been there for me, providing whatever was needed! Whenever I had to step back for a while and lurk because I was too ill to do anything else I was always welcomed back as if I’d never been “gone”.

This is going to be an awfully sentimental post isn’t it…oh well, onwards! 😆

Of course sometimes I think “what if..” – it’s human nature. However whilst I wonder if a left turn there or a right turn here could have prevented all this, I know in reality it couldn’t. Whatever it is it’s an abnormality in my body that was waiting to strike, nothing I did or didn’t do could have stopped that! I got into the primary school I went to by the skin of my teeth – I was actually going to a different one because it was full, then someone moved away at the last minute and I was top of the list so got in. That’s how close it was!
For years I wondered if if I’d gone to the other school maybe I wouldn’t have picked up whatever it was that triggered everything off, though as it turns out that could be neither here nor there now.

I don’t know, I really don’t! I’ve been through so many different emotions recently (and I’ve been typing this over four days, btw). Instead of things getting better they stay the same in many ways but get worse as I seem to add more problems on top! I’m waiting to see what happens with AS Level results, last year the GCSE results made me quite upset but as AS are halfway through A-Levels I shouldn’t think they’ll have quite the same effect. Time will tell 😉

Anyway, as I was saying, the end of the road. Getting this far’s not been easy, I’ve often felt as if people don’t believe me and, even though they didn’t say as much, think I should just pull myself together. Because of course my idea of fun is to be like this for seven years! But there are a lot of things that I’m glad I’ve had the opportunity to do, that I wouldn’t otherwise have had. Sheesh this is turning into one of those awful BAFTA speeches that just drones on and on and on…..and on……and on……so to the point. I’m going up to Bristol Childrens Hospital on 12th September (first week of college – gotta love the timing!) for tests (everything under the sun I think! Including a muscle biopsy. Ick.) which should finally provide an answer. I hope.

I’m terrified they won’t find anything yet scared they will, well not so much scared they will as scared of what they could potentially find. I can’t settle to anything at the moment, more or less everything is on hold until after then.

So there you have it 😉

It really is amazing the power that Lyn has on me! In just over a week – since my last entry – I’ve redesigned TDP, converted 99% of existing pages, rewritten half of it and added some new things….magic!

(Oh and Petza is out of this world…I’m in heaven!)